Memory 31 - Significant Negative
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stigmateyesMemory 31: Alpha
Today's memory is a special treat! It comes in two forms! Video and book. Be forewarned, book is much more graphic and disturbing. Book is what I will be using, but video is just for extra visual.
VIDEO:
Start here until scene switch. There's a little more but I don't feel like jumping forward for a little snippet. Memory ends with Alpha attacking Ryner with claws.
BOOK:
Still too lazy to C/P. Start at the diamond half-way point and continue until "Only a scream was heard."
What he learns?
- His head is full of really scary stuff. Like ground made of blood and walls made of organic innards and such. Ew.
- When he's in his conscious, there's some sort of spell surrounding his body.
- He can hear the same voice there as he hears in his head before his Alpha Stigma takes over.
- He ended up here after he got stabbed. Does that mean he's really dead after all? D:
- THE OWNER OF ALPHA STIGMA IS SCARY AS FUCK. And also RIDICULOUSLY POWERFUL AND BAD BAD BAD. And something that seriously shouldn't be. THIS is what's inside of him?! OMG!
- It's called Alpha.
- Apparently if it eats his part of his conscious, it will be free of its seal and be able to take over completely!
- Even in his memory, he doesn't know what the hell Alpha is talking about. Something about a seal, a door, a contract, a key... And Solver of All Equations.
What this means to Aather?
This memory is extremely CRUSHING for Ryner since it pretty much does its best to REVERSE all the progress anyone has ever made in getting him to accept being around people and allow himself to be close to them. This tells him that something completely HORRIFIC exists inside him and that it's power is enormous. Ryner has no idea whether he can control something like this. And is now PRETTY MUCH TERRIFIED of taking any chances with his emotions. He's lost it before at Aather and people have just barely been able to help him back. But... what if one time they couldn't or they took too long... THIS THING COULD TAKE OVER. He's not even too sure the power cap could restrict Alpha since Alpha reads PERSONAE LEVEL. He seriously scares him to death because of the mere realization that that thing could be, through him, close to the people he cares about. And he knows Alpha cares for NOTHING and only wishes to see death and destruction. This is pretty much crippling Ryner entirely on interaction with others. And will be very, very hard to shake...
Hell, he's so traumatized by Alpha, he's not even thinking though the "could be dead" implications here. Or really, what Solver of All Equations means about him.
Just. OMG.
Today's memory is a special treat! It comes in two forms! Video and book. Be forewarned, book is much more graphic and disturbing. Book is what I will be using, but video is just for extra visual.
VIDEO:
Start here until scene switch. There's a little more but I don't feel like jumping forward for a little snippet. Memory ends with Alpha attacking Ryner with claws.
BOOK:
Still too lazy to C/P. Start at the diamond half-way point and continue until "Only a scream was heard."
What he learns?
- His head is full of really scary stuff. Like ground made of blood and walls made of organic innards and such. Ew.
- When he's in his conscious, there's some sort of spell surrounding his body.
- He can hear the same voice there as he hears in his head before his Alpha Stigma takes over.
- He ended up here after he got stabbed. Does that mean he's really dead after all? D:
- THE OWNER OF ALPHA STIGMA IS SCARY AS FUCK. And also RIDICULOUSLY POWERFUL AND BAD BAD BAD. And something that seriously shouldn't be. THIS is what's inside of him?! OMG!
- It's called Alpha.
- Apparently if it eats his part of his conscious, it will be free of its seal and be able to take over completely!
- Even in his memory, he doesn't know what the hell Alpha is talking about. Something about a seal, a door, a contract, a key... And Solver of All Equations.
What this means to Aather?
This memory is extremely CRUSHING for Ryner since it pretty much does its best to REVERSE all the progress anyone has ever made in getting him to accept being around people and allow himself to be close to them. This tells him that something completely HORRIFIC exists inside him and that it's power is enormous. Ryner has no idea whether he can control something like this. And is now PRETTY MUCH TERRIFIED of taking any chances with his emotions. He's lost it before at Aather and people have just barely been able to help him back. But... what if one time they couldn't or they took too long... THIS THING COULD TAKE OVER. He's not even too sure the power cap could restrict Alpha since Alpha reads PERSONAE LEVEL. He seriously scares him to death because of the mere realization that that thing could be, through him, close to the people he cares about. And he knows Alpha cares for NOTHING and only wishes to see death and destruction. This is pretty much crippling Ryner entirely on interaction with others. And will be very, very hard to shake...
Hell, he's so traumatized by Alpha, he's not even thinking though the "could be dead" implications here. Or really, what Solver of All Equations means about him.
Just. OMG.
