Memory 69 - Significant Negative

Memory 69: Killing people to save Miilk

( I'm just going to copy the section here since it's hard to find in the chapter. )

What he learns?
- Someone had beaten Miilk to the point of near-death when they were in the institute together.
- He had snapped and killed again with his Alpha Stigma.
- Miilk had told him it wasn't bad if he killed her.
- She told him it was okay if he was a monster and he managed to quell his AS.
- They called him 837.
- The soldiers spared Miilk so they could use her to research him.

What this means?
Well, his memory of fighting against AS mitigates this some, but it's still pretty awful. And Ryner hates remembering murders. This is especially hard because it shows that Miilk survived because of him but for the worst reason. :(